Oh, September!

It’s September and besides the fact that I dislike autumn profoundly, I feel unchanged. In the previous years, as time passed, I used to become depressed and sad for no reason at all. At times like that I used to forget who I was and I used to forget my dreams and cover myself in a cocoon of ignorance and by the time winter had stroked our land, I would already be numb and long fallen asleep in my own mist of confusing loneliness.

But now, I still feel like summer never left, even though the cold mornings give me chicken skin and keep reminding me that it is over. Maybe it’s just the beginning and I haven’t yet accepted the present, but it’s nice not to feel that sudden change that didn’t represent who I was/am at all.

Besides fall, school started. I am happy and grumpy at the same time. I’m excited to see my friends again. Between travels, Argentinian friends visiting, a fortnight at my grandparents and living outside of the city, I had no time to spend with them. But, to be honest, I regret nothing I did this summer. And they get it. I guess that’s the beauty of having friends: they get you.

Why am I grumpy? You ask. Well, waking up when it’s still dark outside and spending half an hour on the bus and then having to attend a very boring first class it’s not the most encouraging and exciting way to start your day.  “Maybe your days are not supposed to be exciting” you say; “especially when you are in school”. I guess you’re right. School is for studying and learning new things that will help you later in life. And I totally agree with you if you can explain to me why and when am I going to need to find the ‘x’ in real life? I may need to find my ex for some reconciliation, so to say, but other than that …

Once this new school year began, a crazy smoldering fire started out in me. I’m eager to learn everything I can get my hands on. So I’m having a very productive first week. I started learning Portuguese, as you may know, in the early days of September and new coding languages. It’s nice to feel busy.

I’m going to end the rambling here as I’m too happy to continue writing such autumnal words about fall. I’m grateful for the still-warm afternoons and the sunset’s pinks and oranges. Despite the beauty, it's raining tonight...

Oh, September!